This will be the most difficult Christmas season of my life.
On July 31, 2009 my precious daughter, Suzy, lost her battle with cancer. This will be my first Christmas in 38 years to not shop for a gift for her.
This will be her sister and brother's first Christmas without her. She was my first baby and took the role of big sister seriously. She was an organizer and planner and when she told Beth or John to have a good time, she meant it!
This will be Eric, her husband's, first Christmas without her in fourteen (14) years.
But most difficult of all, it will be Ethan and Abby, her children's, first Christmas without her.
She loves all of us unstintingly, forever. So, my Christmas gift to her will be to make this the best holiday season ever. I'm not sure what that entails, or how I'm going to do it, but I do know there will be humor involved! This blog will chronicle my journey.
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It will be hard; however, do what Suzy would have wanted you to do and what you would do were she here. Don't forget your other family members. Try not to dwell. Cry, however, often. Talk about it.
ReplyDeleteReading your thoughts, I understand what my mother went through when she lost her youngest daughter, my sister, Patty, on my birthday. Children should never die before a parent. Why does it happen? It does affect you and will for the rest of your life. Just try to hang in there as Suzy would have wanted you to do so. One day I will share all the emotions, etc., I went through and still do today. It is very upsetting to see families--to hear them talk about them, their vacations, etc.. However, that is life for them and we have to rejoice in their pleasures. I envy them so much.
I know this will be a very difficult Holiday Season for all of the family. You will do everything in your power to make it as normal for the children as possible. You will go on with all your family traditions as you always have, because that is what Suzy wanted. She lives through you, and all the wonderful things she was, will always be remembered,because of you.
ReplyDeleteOK, Mary, you know I love you dearly, but this pinecone thing is a little to much work for me. I think we should just spray them real good with bug spray, then put cinnamen all over them to keep them smelling good, or spray them with cinnamen oil to throw in the fireplace! I have a great quote for you today.
ReplyDelete"A woman is like a tea bag,you can not tell how strong she is until you put her in hot water"